I’m Crazy

If someone were to look through my search engine at home or at work they would think I was a lunatic. I’ve gotten to the point where I just can’t help myself.. I Google EVERYTHING and I do mean EVERTYHING! I should keep a list of the random things I Google. I have gotten especially crazy in the last 4 days of the TWW.

So, tomorrow is the day, TOMORROW!!!! Holy smokes! As long as this two weeks has felt, this entire cycle has flown by. I’m excited and anxious to hear what the results are. If they are negative it will suck and I will be heartbroken, but I will pick myself off and we will try again. I’ll also drown my sorrows in a bottle or two of wine. If it is positive I will be overwhelmed with excitement and gratefulness. Either way I am excited to know.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKK!!!!

Optimism, where did you go? ?

I’m a little down in the dumps today… I tried staying optimistic and positive, but today it is lacking a little. Yesterday I started having “period-like” cramps/ twinges. Or at least what I think is period like cramps. So naturally I began symptom spotting myself left and right. I haven’t completely counted myself out because I have read on doctor Google about many people that had similar feelings and still ended up pregnant. So my question to you all is, have any of you have “period-like symptoms” and still gotten a BFP?

Some of the other symptoms or random things I have noticed in the past few days is: a random rash on both of my upper arms. Also, when I wake up or stand up after laying down for a while my ENTIRE body aches. Sleeping sucks these past few days- I have trouble falling asleep and staying asleep…Finally, I get briefly nauseous after eating. It doesn’t last long, but has been happening pretty regularly.

I’m still going to try to be as positive as possible until I get my beta results, but I don’t want to set myself up to ultimately be crushed either (I will be no matter what if it is a negative). Are any of you getting the second week crazies during your TWW?

This will be my time, this will be my time, this WILL be MY time!!!

Baby dust to you all!

It’s The final Countdown

Here we are. The final countdown. Only FOUR days left until I find out if this cycle was a deal or a dud. I am very hopeful that this is our cycle. I am also hesitant still because I have had very minimal symptoms, if any at all. I haven’t been symptom diagnosing nearly as much this cycle. For my sanity more than anything else.

The past few days I have had sudden nausea that comes out of nowhere, but goes away VERY quickly. I thought it was weird, but I am not thinking too much of it. I’m also pretty irritable and moody, but that could just be AF coming.

Operation CLEAN THE HELL OUT OF MY HOUSE starts tomorrow. My husband will be very happy once the house is clean. He pretty much does all of the house keeping year round, so when I am on summer break I have to pick up a little slack. We are also in the middle of a remodel. We are re-doing our master bathroom and the kitchen. I can’t wait for them to be finished.

Cheers to staying as busy as possible for the next 4 days.

1 Week Down!

Well, you read it…. I am HALFWAY through my TWW. This TWW has been a lot different than my last TWW after the IUI. I am much less stressed and obsessive. I’m also not paying too much attention to “symptoms” or anything like that. This has been both good and bad for me. Good because my day isn’t consumed with convincing myself that I am pregnant, and bad because I don’t feel like I have any “pregnancy-like” symptoms this time so I have convinced myself that I am probably not pregnant. Do any of you do this?

I think I am going to hold out again on taking a HPT and wait for my BETA. I did test my trigger a few times and it has without a doubt lasted in my system longer this time. Last time it tested out of my system in about 5 days. When I tested 8 days after the trigger this time it was still in my system (pretty light though), I haven’t tested since then though.

The second week of the TWW is generally the toughest for me. So, I am planning on doing a huge summer clean of our entire house. Much needed if I do say so myself. Hopefully this will keep me distracted and get me through the long stretch until Thursday!

Praying for my positive!

IUI 2-complete

The stupid computer wit let me update so I’m doing it from my phone.  Please excuse me if it looks funky.

Well, the title pretty much says it all… we completed our 2nd IUI procedure yesterday. The RE office called us on Wednesday and asked if the could move our appointment up from 2 to 11. We were fine with that, I was actually pretty happy about it because I think that would be closer to my ovulation time. This go around the female doctor did my IUI. I was a little hesitant at first, simply because she didn’t do it the first time… but, it made sense for her to do it because she did all of my monitoring this cycle. So that was that.

E went in before the IUI to do his deed. His numbers were a little (not much) better this time compared to last. Last cycle he had 7 million sperm and this cycle he had 7.5 million sperm with 89% motility post wash. The number still seems low to me, but the doctor wasn’t concerned with it at all. She said they like to see anywhere between 5-10 million post wash. Our egg quality was also much better this go around. Last cycle my largest follicle was 18, this cycle my largest one was around a 26 and we had 3 other juicy ones with it. The procedure itself was actually ALOT more painful than the first time. This was because she had trouble with my cervix and had to use another speculum type tool to open my cervix for the catheter- holy shit, ouch!

After the appointment we went out for some lunch and then went back home to relax. I was pretty crampy and wasn’t really up to doing anything. We had planned on BD that evening and then this morning….buuuuuuuuuuuuut that didn’t exactly work out for us. Yesterday I was just too crampy and not feeling up to it. This morning we got started, but ran out of time because E had to get to work. So hopefully at least 1 (maybe 2) of his Michael Phelps swimmers find and fertilize an egg.

and now we wait…..

Randomness

So, this will be a totally random post. I ended up going to the station last night for Eli to give me my shot. I totally could have done it, but I psyched myself out watching videos of other people doing it and reading horror stories about people doing it wrong. So, I drove out there at 10 (I’m usually in bed by 9) and was soooooo tired driving back. He was on a call when I got there too so I had to wait another 20 minutes…. stinking people needing their lives saved. Don’t they know I need my shot??

Today I am feeling a little BLAH. I also have a really dull pain in my left leg. The pain started yesterday before the trigger and it has continued through today. Has anyone else had this side effect? I’ve also had my ongoing headache. I think that is partially because I haven’t had any caffeine. 

Tomorrow is the big day!!! EEEEk! I even bought E “lucky” underwear to wear… I’m a nut, I know.

On a side note- I ordered my Erin Condren life planner today. I freaking love planners and organization. These planners are by far the most outstanding that I have used. I am sooooo freaking excited to get my planner in. When I was teaching I used the teacher planner, it was fabulous!! The little things that amuse me…. If you haven’t hear of them you should check them out. They are a little pricey, but TOTALLY worth it. 

https://www.erincondren.com/referral/invite/jamiesnow0417

Ultrasound and IUI #2

I went in for my ultrasound today without my hubby because he was on shift at the fire station. This was the first visit I have gone to without him so I was extra nervous (for no reason). All of the doctors and nurses were asking about him, it was the cutest thing. Anyway- I had my ultrasound this morning and it was amazing the number of follicles that we saw this time compared to last time. You could see them everywhere as she waved the wand around and last time we had to search for them. I had 4 decent ones (13.46, 16.55, 18.02, and 23.92) and my lining was a 7.41…. I was pretty stoked about it. The picture I included was one of my plump follicles… do you guys see the cute heart???

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So, I am right on track. I trigger tonight. This is also the first time I have to trigger myself because E is on shift. He said that I could take it up to the station and he would do it for me, but I think I’ll just try to do it myself. Then we go in for the IUI on Thursday. I was so excited when she said the 3rd and not the 4th. That was our biggest fear going into this cycle because it is the only day E can’t take off work. It’s great when things work out how they are supposed to.
Fingers crossed that this is my cycle and I don’t have to go through all of this FUN again…I am pretty excited to get this show on the road and welcome my little angel!