IUI Questions

As CD 1 quickly approaches (at least I think because I had a little gunk today in the bathroom) I have a few questions that I would like to ask you guys about your IUI experience.

1. Did you drink coffee/ Caffeine before your IUI or during the TWW?

2. Did you drink alcohol before your IUI or during the TWW?

3. Did you exercise when you were on your fertility medication?

4. Did you exercise during your TWW? To what extent?

5. Sex… Did you have sex the same day as your IUI? I wasn’t able to this last time due to all of the cramping I was experiencing.

6. Did you go on a fertility friendly diet? If so, what did it consist of?

7. Did you do a HPT before your beta or did you wait? I waited this last time and am debating as to whether or not I should this time.

8. Is there anything I can have my hubby do to increase his sperm count? We were at 7 million last time and I would like for that to increase a bit.

9. What vitamins did you continue taking during the process?

Any and all responses would be greatly appreciated! 

The end is near…

As I near the end of my TWW I am flooded with an enormous amount of emotions. I never knew how effected I would be by this entire experience. It has taken a lot out of me not to test early, but I followed the doctors directions (suprisingly) and I haven’t! I go in bright and early tomorrow for my Beta, but they told us not to expect to hear anything until after 4… holy hell! Talk about a day of worrying. I’ve decided to go back to work and keep myself busy instead of taking the day off. E has also decided that he would like for me to find out when they call and then just share the news with him. I am excited and nervous about doing this. I am excited because if I AM pregnant then I could go buy a cute little suprise gift for him. If I am NOT pregnant then I’ll have to take the bad news alone and probably wallow in my own tears for the night. 

I think I am ok regardless of the outcome. I don’t have my expectations set too high, but naturally I am so hopeful that it will be positive!

On a positive note I am no longer having the terrible AF like cramps that I was experiencing earlier in the week and I sitll haven’t started AF. This could be due to the progesterone though. 

Prayers and baby dust for everyone!

Progesterone

So, Dr. Google has gone off and confused me once again… So, my question to all of you wonderful ladies is…

Does progesterone delay the onset of AF? I don’t want to get my hopes up for nothing, but I find varying discussions when I do a Google search. So, I wanted to find out from those of you that have personal experiences with it. My AF isn’t supposed to arrive until Thursday and my BETA is scheduled for Friday… But, generally I have some tell-tell signs of AF’s arrival. I have always had a terrible AF with horrible cramps and a weeks worth of spotting before it fully begins. I’m not really having that at all this time. I have had some minor cramping, but it is dull and lower down than normal and I have been extremely tired. My cramping also isn’t limited to one side as it normally is with AF… Has anyone else experienced something similar?

I’ve also convinced myself that if I am pregnant (fingers crossed) that I am having twins, lol! I’ve lost my damn mind, I know, but for some reason I feel like I am going to have twins. One could only hope it would be that easy. 

These next 4 days are going to be the longest 4 days ever…. ahhh!

7dpiui

Here we are, a week after IUI #1 and I am not sure how to feel. It is almost like I have convinced myself that this won’t work. Even though I really REALLY hope it will. Maybe I have been disappointed to many times. Maybe I have seen too many negative tests, or had my exciting positives ripped out from underneath me. I’m terrified! I don’t go in for blood work until next Friday, which is the day after AF is supposed to arrive. I won’t find out the results until Saturday morning because E is on shift and I told him I wouldn’t listen to the message without him….. I am sure that next week I am going to be on pins and needles. 

Yesterday I was a raging bitch. I have no idea why, but I was ridiculously hormonal. My poor husband was just getting the brute of it all. I couldn’t help myself. I ended up having to put myself to bed around 7 because I was a wreck. I am hoping this isn’t PMS rearing it’s ugly little head. I live in fear each time I go to the bathroom. I’m afraid that I am going to look down and see blood each time =(. 

I am going to stay positive though. This will work. This has to work. We will be parents. It is our time! 

Mini Panic Attack

Well, crap! I am really freaking out right now. I am sure (hopefully) I am overreacting, but still…

So, today at work I was hit/pushed in the stomach a few times by a very upset student. Naturally I was a little concerned. Actually, I didn’t think anything about it at first until my principal stepped in and said, “you can’t deal with this situation right now, you are trying to have a baby”. Then it clicked. I feel like a terrible person for not even thinking about it…. I am having slight cramping right now, but I can’t say that I wasn’t having those before because I have been cramping on and off since the IUI. Should I be concerned? My IUI was on Friday. So implantation should be happening sometime soon. I emailed the doctor, but haven’t hear anything back from him yet.

AHHHHHH… Anyone been through a similar situation?

Tough

So… as I sit here wondering what the hell is going on with my body (yup, still spotting) I find out that another good friend of mine is pregnant. Her and her husband tried for a whopping month. I am so happy for them, they are a wonderful couple and great parents already, but a slim part of me is very bitter. I am jealous, extremely jealous.

Naturally, this resulted in me taking it out on my innocent husband. Lately I have been very emotional, needy, and completely confused by my body. Finding out about the pregnancy was really the icing on the cake. When he finally called me at 8:30 last night (he’s a firefighter and was on shift) I just lost it. I started bawling because I want a baby so bad. He wasn’t very helpful and kept saying things like “well, it’s just easier for some people”… ya, that didn’t work so well with me. I got off the phone and laid in bed depressed watching ridiculous reality shows.

This morning I woke up and decided to take another pregnancy test. Not to my surprise it was a BFN.. again. I don’t know why I thought it would be any different. I keep trying to convince myself that this weird spotting that I’ve never had is implantation bleeding and that I’m pregnant, but no…

So, what the hell is going on with my body? Why have I been spotting (very very light only when I wipe) for seven days? If i’m not pregnant why won’t AF just come on so I can get this show on the road again.

I have a lot of emotions running through me right now. Many of them aren’t warranted, but I don’t really know how to get rid of them….

My Crazy is Showing

Last time I blogged I had just done my HSG. After much discussion with my husband we decided to wait a few more months before going forward with the IUI. We made this decision for a few reasons…

• 1. We have an HSA and wanted to put a little more in it each month to avoid so much coming out of our pocket at once.
• 2. The doctor told us that the chance of getting pregnant naturally after an HSG could POSSIBLY increase. I’m skeptical about this, but it doesn’t hurt to hope.
• 3. We decided to be a little selfish and have some fun together for the next two months.

As a part of our fun together we planned a few trips. For Valentine’s Day we are going to Fredricksburg and for spring break we are planning on going to New Orleans. The trip to Fredricksburg brings bittersweet emotions to me. When I had my miscarriage back in September it happened while I was at a bachelorette party in Fredricksburg. Because I was pregnant during my last trip I didn’t get to experience the wine and whiskey tours so I have really been looking forward to it…..

With that being said, I keep psyching myself out with the possibility that I could be pregnant (VERY VERY VERYYY early) right now. On 1/29 I started to bleed very lightly. The blood was a darkish brown that only showed up when I wiped. It is still there today, but is very minimal. Dear AF isn’t supposed to be here until 2/7 and she generally works like clock work. With endless amounts of research and internet stalking I find that it could be implantation bleeding (or cancer). With all the tests that have been run on me lately I highly doubt that it’s cancer. Everything that I am feeling seems to correspond with implantation bleeding. I am between 9-11 DPO. Today is the only day that I have felt like I have had a “symptom” and it is just slight cramping (similar, but not as severe as AF). I go back and forth on going ahead and testing (it’s too early, I know) or waiting another week… I just HATE waiting. I’m too impatient.

How ironic would it be to get another BFP right before going to Fredricksburg?!? Realistically, I doubt that I am pregnant. There is nothing I want more, but I have so many things working against me and the odds aren’t exactly in my favor. I don’t want to get my hopes up and I don’t want to just drag it out either.

So…

• Have any of you experienced implantation bleeding? What was it like for you? How long did it last?
• Would I be ridiculously stupid to test this early? (CD 21, between 9-11 DPO)
• Do you internet stalk your symptoms?